• Faith

    The Darkest Dark

    Today is Good Friday and when I’ve stopped and really reflected, I realize Good Friday wasn’t good at all. When I’ve sat with what Good Friday really is, I’m overcome. Overcome with awe. Overcome with grief. Overcome with fear. Overcome with overwhelming gratitude. Overcome with deep sadness and been brought to tears. The Darkness of Friday I don’t often sit and reflect on the events of Good Friday. I don’t often allow myself to become immersed in that day, to place myself in Jerusalem, watching as Jesus was beaten, mocked, stripped, ridiculed, tormented, and ultimately murdered. Allowing myself into that place opens deep places of sorrow and grief in my…

  • Faith,  Shame

    SufferingandGodsGoodness

    I have to speak out. I have to speak these words. Especially now. You see, I have this issue. I have an issue with God’s goodness. Because His goodness isn’t my goodness. Like, it’s not goodness on my terms. And that’s hard to swallow. BUT I love Him and I believe HE IS GOOD.  I think we’ve got it wrong. We believe our definition of goodness is His definition. Its not. Its just not. Let me explain… Social media gets my goat for a lot of reasons, but probably the number one reason is the misrepresentation of the Christian life. I can’t tell you how many pictures I see of…